Adoption Issues from an adoptee

Being adopted certainly has had its ups and downs. I grew up knowing that my birth mother had three children before me then once I found her I found out she had 4 more after me. I was blessed with spending time with my birth mother before she passed. I was blessed with meeting several half siblings. Overall however, it hurt when I had to come to terms with reality. Just because I had the room and the time for them in my life (and love to share since I was raised as an only child), didn't mean I would be welcome or remain welcome in theirs. I was an outsider. Once I removed any expectations, it didn't bring me closer to them but I felt a little better.